It's snowing and I feel wonderful

You know when you hear a song and it instantly makes you think of a place/time/situation, even though you've never heard it before? Might just be me, but the latest one of these for me is 'Best Thing I Never Had' by Beyonce. It's as if the lyrics were written for me.
Thank God I found the good in goodbye.

Life goes round in endless circles

I feel a mixture of feelings today. Tomorrow is my last ever day at KFC. 99.9999% of me is so stoked to be leaving that I just wanna dance around and scream. The other percentage of me is sad that some of the people there have been part of my life for 2 1/2 years and I will come back and visit but still I'll hardly ever see them.
Also, this past week i've been in Dunedin - scarfie central :p I had a freakn awesome time hanging out with friends and meeting new ones! Got to know someone special too and didn't even need my wingman!! lol :) I had such a good week I don't even know where to start in describing it! I will, another time when I'm not so sleepy.
goodnight all!

Going to Hanmer this week with Julia! I can't wait it's gonna be awesome :D Gonna have a skins and misfits marathon, go to the hot pools, have epic adventures! I really need a holiday... So sick of working all the time! Also, I just booked to go to Melbourne for a long weekend with my awesome mother :) Can't wait for that either. Life is pretty good at the moment.
I had an amazing weekend, hung out with a mate I haven't seen in ages and met a bunch of awesome new people.
See, I don't only blog when I'm sad!! Happy to prove myself wrong!
(But in case you wondered I still hate kfry with a passion haha)

Love this song. That is all.

I know you're somewhere out there
Somewhere far away
I want you back
I want you back
My neighbors think
I'm crazy
But they don't understand
You're all I have
You're all I have

At night when the stars
light up my room
I sit by myself

Talking to the Moon
Trying to get to You
In hopes you're on
the other side
Talking to me too
Or am I a fool
who sits alone
Talking to the moon

I'm feeling like I'm famous
The talk of the town
They say
I've gone mad
Yeah
I've gone mad
But they don't know
what I know

Cause when the
sun goes down
someone's talking back
Yeah
They're talking back

At night when the stars
light up my room
I sit by myself

Talking to the Moon
Trying to get to You
In hopes you're on
the other side
Talking to me too
Or am I a fool
who sits alone
Talking to the moon


At night when the stars
light up my room
I sit by myself
Talking to the Moon
Trying to get to You
In hopes you're on
the other side
Talking to me too
Or am I a fool
who sits alone
Talking to the moon


Do you ever hear me calling?
Cause every night
I'm talking to the moon
Still trying to get to you

In hopes you're on
the other side
Talking to me too
Or am I a fool
who sits alone
Talking to the moon

I know you're somewhere out there
Somewhere far away

Bruno Mars - Talking to the Moon

I'm about to head off to work so this will be short but I am trying to blog more so here it is...I'm thinking about going to Oz later in the year, possibly to Sydney. I need a break so much - I just can't handle my life at the moment. I need a new job! New boss starts tomorrow and if he doesn't want me to be a manger I'm going to quit. I'm really looking forward to Uni next year I think it will be fantastic and I cannot tell you how relieved I am to have figured out roughly what subjects I want to take!!! It's a lot of weight off my mind.
That's all for now :)

Formspring told me to.

Someone told me to blog more and I seem to have insomnia, so here we are.
I'm currently having a lot of fun planning a surprise for my good friend Roseanna's birthday, and I felt it necessary to purchase not one outfit but three for this occasion! I wish it were July already!!
Also, I no longer hate living in a small town. Small towns are awesome. I went out last night and lost my cell phone and freaked out thinking where I could have lost it. I used it to call my brother to pick me up so I had it right before going home but it wasn't at home, or in my brother's car, or at the bar! And so I was freaking out when there was a knock on my door, and who should it be but the mother of a child my mother used to teach, holding a pink and black cell phone and saying does this belong to you? Small world, yes. but small worlds are awesome!
What else shall I tell you, fellow bloggers?
I am now planning on studying marketing, not social work. Total turnaround, I know, but I think I'll enjoy it a lot more. Hopefully. Looking forward to the uni experience next year. Wish I did it this year but ah well we live and learn.
And now I shall bid you adieu, but I will blog more in future.
And they will get more interesting when I'm not just blogging due to insomnia, I promise.

:)

AND WHAT

Theme Thursday - Gossip

Gossip is not all lies.
But that doesn't make it okay.

Silly

You know what's silly? I wrote three drafts for this but I couldn't post any of them. Too close to home. I couldn't bear for you to read my heart like an open book.

Theme Thursday - Paint

Let me paint a picture for you...

A dewy spring morning, one of those where you can smell the moisture and flowers in the cool air. The breeze blew, trees swayed majestically as though the hand of God himself was moving them. And maybe the hand of God was in this scene. She lay in the grass as dew settled on her motionless body. She looked like an angel. She looked at peace.
A few days earlier...
Glasses smashed. The cat fled in fright. They argued for hours, going round and round the same topic. They didn't have enough money, they couldn't cope with the stress, they didn't know what to do. After they were done fighting they hugged and cried. "Never leave me," he said.
"I won't."
And when she woke up in the morning, he was gone.
...
"Which flowers are her favourite?" He asked himself on the way to the florist, planning to return home with flowers and a toy for their soon-to-arrive baby.
...
He found her lifeless body under the tree where they first met.

Theme Thursday - Turn

You know, it feels like I've turned a corner. Ignore my last post, I think my birthday will be amazing! I'm spending it with my awesome friends who I love to pieces, and what more could I wish for??
I'm doing bellydancing tonight, which makes me happy! Me and Rosie wanna see what this bellydancing school is like so are tagging along on my mother's friend's hens night :D should be fun! And hopefully Rosie and I will start there soon :)
So, as you can see I'm feeling far less down than I was! My life is pretty damn good so I've realised I gotta stop being so self centred and see that I'm actually pretty lucky.
Oh! weird news - my mother is moving out of home to go flatting! wtf! should be good though, just gonna live at home with my bro! party, anyone? :p

Next time you point a finger, I'll point you to the mirror

I'm turning 18 in less than three weeks. I was so excited about that a month ago. But now it's like it doesn't matter. Nothing matters when the biggest part of your life is just gone.
Now, thinking about turning 18 it hits me;
I don't know what I want to do.
I don't know where my life is going.
I don't know what the year will bring.
I thought that by 18 I'd have it all together, I'd know what to do in any given situation.
But instead, I find myself falling apart at the seams.

I really hope that this time next year, I can look back at this post and think, "You know, I did really got it together this year. I achieved something. I know where I'm headed."
But I doubt it, I really do.

Lately, my birthdays have sucked. When I turned 17 I was a fricken school camp. Whoo. It was just a normal day; other than being woken with a rendition of happy birthday, the day carried on like any other. It was utterly depressing. And this one will probably suck just as much. I'm going to make it as fun as I can but there's only so much I can do. I wish I could skip from the 11th to the 13th and be suddenly 18 without the actual birthday day. Why can't you do that?!

You know, I really only post when I'm sad. And I'm sorry for that. But it just goes to show that the last 7 months of my life were the happiest, despite what you may think.

This post is a little too close to home, I almost don't wanna post it, but what the hell not many people read it anyway.

Theme Thursday - Jump

Yeah, I'd like to jump off something. Like a bridge.
No, I'm kidding.
Really.
Kinda.

-

I can't breathe.

theme thursday - fence, but also a rant just because i can

I used to like being alone. I liked to feel self-sufficient. I liked to feel in control.
But it gets depressing, cooking meals for one. Cleaning an already clean house because there's no one around to mess it up. I still like to be in control. But I get lonely.
Oh sure, my brother is here but him being here is the same as being alone.

And then I go to work and people are just rude, like SERIOUSLY I WANTED TO PUNCH SOMEONE, the smug bastard.
I'd rather be home alone being depressed.

I need another job.
Something interesting.
Somewhere i feel like I make a difference.
Where I can make an impact on people's lives.
Where people don't ask stupid questions.

I feel like my life is on the fence at the moment.
Waiting for next year.
Waiting for my life to begin.

Memories, they fall like the autumn leaves and disintegrate into nothing

Sunshine
Cobbled pavements
Shower raves
Bars at 1am
Internet cafes at 1am when we missed our loved ones too much
That misshapen tree near the Pont du Gard
The t-shirt coversation
Crying in the middle of the night
Laughing in the middle of the night
Her hand was paper
Bed raves
Epic Patisseries
Freedom
Carefree memories
'Preservatif' machine photos
General craziness
We all gathered in one room and cried together
Awkward Friday on the bus
Adventures
Carcasonne
Shopping
Photos with Prince Charming

A million reasons to stay
A million and one reasons to leave

France.

earthquake times

So. On saturday night there was a massive earthquake just west of Christchurch, 7.1 on the richter scale, it was felt in more than 50 percent of New Zealand. Bloody freaky! Luckily though, I live just out of Christchurch and there was no damage to my house even though a small town nearby got hit pretty bad, with buildings on the main street pretty much just disintegrating. The quake hit at around 4.30 am and the funny thing is, it never occured to me to get out of bed... dumb or what?!?! I am just so so thankful there is no damage here and my heart really goes out to all those who have had damage to their homes and those who may have to demolish their homes. It's times like this though that it's important to remember that possessions don't matter. We are not defined by what we own, but by who we are - we are fashioned by a God who loves us and nothing else matters in the end

Theme Thursday - Palm

Guess what I'm holding in my palm right now?
My full licence!!!!
That's right, you better watch out
I'll be on a road near you
after 10 pm :o
with passengers :o :o
LEGALLY :O :O :O :O
Yeah I'm very excited haha can you tell

Theme Thursday - Light

Enlightenment.

What does it really mean?

Is it really knowing the meaning of the world, the universe and Everything?

Is is when you finally understand that tricky bit of algebra you took forever to get?

Is it finally realising that life is imperfect?

That love is imperfect?

That the world is imperfect?

That I am the furtherest from perfection you can get?

Or is it finding the perfections in imperfections?

The proverbial light at the end of the tunnel...

The silver lining in the cloud...

The rainbow after the rain...

The good among the bad.

It is the contrasts in life that make us realise how good we really have it

And for me, that is enlightenment.