theme thursday - fence, but also a rant just because i can

I used to like being alone. I liked to feel self-sufficient. I liked to feel in control.
But it gets depressing, cooking meals for one. Cleaning an already clean house because there's no one around to mess it up. I still like to be in control. But I get lonely.
Oh sure, my brother is here but him being here is the same as being alone.

And then I go to work and people are just rude, like SERIOUSLY I WANTED TO PUNCH SOMEONE, the smug bastard.
I'd rather be home alone being depressed.

I need another job.
Something interesting.
Somewhere i feel like I make a difference.
Where I can make an impact on people's lives.
Where people don't ask stupid questions.

I feel like my life is on the fence at the moment.
Waiting for next year.
Waiting for my life to begin.

Memories, they fall like the autumn leaves and disintegrate into nothing

Sunshine
Cobbled pavements
Shower raves
Bars at 1am
Internet cafes at 1am when we missed our loved ones too much
That misshapen tree near the Pont du Gard
The t-shirt coversation
Crying in the middle of the night
Laughing in the middle of the night
Her hand was paper
Bed raves
Epic Patisseries
Freedom
Carefree memories
'Preservatif' machine photos
General craziness
We all gathered in one room and cried together
Awkward Friday on the bus
Adventures
Carcasonne
Shopping
Photos with Prince Charming

A million reasons to stay
A million and one reasons to leave

France.

earthquake times

So. On saturday night there was a massive earthquake just west of Christchurch, 7.1 on the richter scale, it was felt in more than 50 percent of New Zealand. Bloody freaky! Luckily though, I live just out of Christchurch and there was no damage to my house even though a small town nearby got hit pretty bad, with buildings on the main street pretty much just disintegrating. The quake hit at around 4.30 am and the funny thing is, it never occured to me to get out of bed... dumb or what?!?! I am just so so thankful there is no damage here and my heart really goes out to all those who have had damage to their homes and those who may have to demolish their homes. It's times like this though that it's important to remember that possessions don't matter. We are not defined by what we own, but by who we are - we are fashioned by a God who loves us and nothing else matters in the end