Theme Thursday - History

Some people don't like to talk about their background - family, heritage, whatever. But really, history is what makes us who we are. We learn from who we have been, who we have been with, where we have been. Each new experience we learn from and in the future we will eventually consider as part of our history. So to me, my history is very important. For example, last year I went out with a guy and it just didn't work out cos i wasn't really that interested in him. And thus I have learnt that i want to wait and be sure before going out with someone. If I had not had that experience, I wouldn't have learnt that lesson and it may have affected how my future turns out, if i'd dated the wrong guy in a couple of years time, just rushing into it again and ended up where i didn't want to. So our history, if we choose to acknowledge it and learn from it can affect our future and have positive impacts in our lives. To those who don't like to 'dwell on the past' - you are missing out on important life lessons and learning more about yourself, knowing who you really are as a person. Sometimes there are experiences you'd rather forget, but look carefully and there's always something positive that came out of it, or at least something you can learn from it. My history makes me the person I am today and I am looking foward to making new history for myself right now. Will you let your history make you the person you are?

rawr.

certain people are annoying me so much at the moment! i hate all those things you really wanna say to people but you just cant. so il write a list. probly none of these are to any of you who read this but i just need to get it out. some of you will probly know who they are (all different ppl btw)

'either be my friend or get the fuck out of my life.'

'I really really wish we still talked. i wish we were still friends cos you were always such a good friend to me :) '

'i wish you were a less annoying person cos ur a real good person to talk to but sometimes you just get on my nerves and thats y i dont reply to ur texts - i just cant b botherd seeing you cos of the annoyingness'

I think that person 1) i have to give up on - get out of their life and they will get out of mine, cos right now i dont think they want to be friends with me but they say they do :s

Person 2) yeah we havent talked in the longest time but i miss back when we were gud m8s and could chat about whatever. it seems too late to start again though

Person 3) i really wish they werent so annoying cos they r really cool and i like talking to them

well thankyou fellow bloggers for letting me get that off my chest :) i shall send it off into cyberspace and feel all the more happier for getting it out (i hope).
and now.. less whingeing from me! life is actually reasonably good at the moment, been hanging out with friends lots and working not much, both of which i have been really enjoying :) my friends r awesome and i love you guys xx

Thought For The Day
Be someones friend, or don't be. Don't be that inbetween person who says that they want to be your friend and then don't even try. If you don't want to be, say so. If you do want to be, make an effort. Either is far better than being inbetween and not letting the other person know where they stand. cos it SUCKS for that person.

song

man i was listening to music today and the lyrics to this song r so relevant to my life rite now i thort id post them

the listening - lights

Please excuse me, I'm not thinking clear
It must just be stress
But I likely shouldn't be here, I'm such a mess

I never really ever know what to say
When all of my emotions get in the way
I'm just trying to get us on the same page (Wish I could explain)

I always get it better right afterward
When all the wrong impressions are said and heard
How come I can never get the right words, I need to convey
Wish I could explain The things that I have to work out

I don't feel right
What has come over me, I'm about
To lose my mind

I never really ever know what to say
When all of my emotions get in the way
I'm just trying to get us on the same page (Wish I could explain)

I always get it better right afterward
When all the wrong impressions are said and heard
How come I can never get the right words, I need to convey
Wish I could explain

Can I let the trees do the talking
Can I let the ground do the walking
Can I let the sky fill what's missing
Can I let my mouth do the listening, the listening

I never really ever know what to say
When all of my emotions get in the way
I'm just trying to get us on the same page

I always get it better right afterward
When all the wrong impressions are said and heard
How come I can never get the right words, I need to convey
Wish I could explain
What I mean to say

♫its a shame that it has to be this way... maybe im to blame or maybe we r the same but either way i cant breathe

well. feeling a lot better than at the time of my last post. a lot better.

sometimes i just have all these thoughts going round in my head and id go crazy if i couldnt talk about it. but some people i wish i could talk to but i just cant, i dont know why... like i know what i wanna say but dunno how or cant put it in words... and i hate it. they ask what im thinking and im like.. uhh i dont know...what kind of answer is that! well the honest truth is i dont know how to put it in words. so there ya go, its something i need to get better at. but i dont know where to start!!

annnnd my thought for the day:

whats on my mind today... whats on my mind... everything. and nothing at all. i just think that we all need to keep people around us who are good for us, i know too many people who hang around people who just arent good for them. no im not talking to anyone in particular, its just i think that most of us have someone in our life like that and maybe its time to cut them out. just something to think about.