lately i feel like everyone is getting the wrong impression of me. honestly, i wouldn't ever purposely try to hurt someone or make someone angry. That's just not me, thats not what i do or how i act. and anyone who thinks so obviously doesn't know me very well. and lately i just feel like therefore there is no one that knows me very well.
Also i'm not the type of person to hold onto anger, i'm actually quite good at letting go of stuff. but this time i feel like it's backfired on me because the other person is obviously still angry at me (although i do know they are trying to get over it) when actually i have way more reason to be angry than them in the first place!!! so now i feel like because i have forgiven them and gotten over it, they get away scot free whilst i suffer with being hated and talked about behind my back. so why am i the one to suffer? because my nature just gives up anger pretty quick. thats not exactly fair!
it just makes me really sad, thats all. I try to do the right thing and move on from stuff and i end up getting even more hurt because of that.
great.
but i don't know what to do about it.
there's nothing really
because i'm not the type to get revenge either. and i actually am over it so i wouldn't want to anyway.
Thought For The Day:
well usually i'm of the opinion that you need to let go of grudges and forgive people but now i see how that can backfire on you when you're only trying to be fair and do the right thing. so maybe hold onto grudges? but that doesn't sound right either.... well who am i to give advice right now anyway?
Also i'm not the type of person to hold onto anger, i'm actually quite good at letting go of stuff. but this time i feel like it's backfired on me because the other person is obviously still angry at me (although i do know they are trying to get over it) when actually i have way more reason to be angry than them in the first place!!! so now i feel like because i have forgiven them and gotten over it, they get away scot free whilst i suffer with being hated and talked about behind my back. so why am i the one to suffer? because my nature just gives up anger pretty quick. thats not exactly fair!
it just makes me really sad, thats all. I try to do the right thing and move on from stuff and i end up getting even more hurt because of that.
great.
but i don't know what to do about it.
there's nothing really
because i'm not the type to get revenge either. and i actually am over it so i wouldn't want to anyway.
Thought For The Day:
well usually i'm of the opinion that you need to let go of grudges and forgive people but now i see how that can backfire on you when you're only trying to be fair and do the right thing. so maybe hold onto grudges? but that doesn't sound right either.... well who am i to give advice right now anyway?
if they are talking about you behind your back confront it...otherwise, forgiveness doesn't worry about scot free and justice...
ReplyDeletefair enough. thats a good point actually, it made me think. and i now think that ive forgiven her for what she did but not her anger towards me, which sounds more accurate. because what you're saying makes sense but i can't help that i feel i've forgiven her and yet also feel it's unfair. so yeah thats my consclusion currently :)
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